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My Beautiful Filth:

We'll start with the rose petals
scattered lavishly across the bed
A symbolic collage of my broken thoughts
like memories crushed and thrown into the winds
they lie where they fall, forever forgotten...

Tacks and nails shall line the floor!
A perfect representation of my painful steps
To walk forward was to suffer
to stand still was to endure
Like the insults thrown at me, like the physical abuse
they drive their way into my skin and remain embedded
Unable to be removed except by force

And now comes the masterpiece, the perfect finishing touch
A wall of words and photographs depicting my sorrows and greivances
The filthy shame of these long years and the pain which I've kept inside
Now I engrave it into this concrete canvas...
Let all the world know of what was done to me
even as I part from it...
For in death I swear they shall have no reprieve!

In life I wanted to be beautiful and in death I shall finally be so
For the weight of my hatred, the weight of my resolve
these feelings, this grudge, all of it shall emerge tonight
like a butterfly, finally free of its cocoon..

When the clock strikes midnight, in the quiet of the dark
a metallic barrel is set against my right temple
There are no regrets for me, nor the slightest shake in my finger
for my only thoughts are of the ultimate vengeance

And when you are alone in the night, warm and safe in your bed
When you hear the shadows creeping and shifting around you
Take a moment to remember those things that you did to me
and smile...
for I shall be smiling, right by your side...


-Chen Yuan Wen, 27th September 2012
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Now...recently I've been seeing plenty of depressing poems on DA. I've seen a boatload of stuff about 'suicide' or 'darkness' and weeeeell...

Let me put it this way, it was always the same thing over and over. Take the topic of 'suicide' for example. 'Slit wrists, hanged from a rope, pills to kill myself'

These were always the standard methods being cited over and over.

Some pieces were good because they really portrayed the hatred and the abuse...but it always falls flat if it ends with something...that has grown to be commonplace.

Now all of you know my style and you know that I LOVE being brutal when I write the dark stuff, but sometimes darkness has to be beautiful. The way in which hatred is portrayed cannot be so easily summed up the use of a razor blade to cut oneself...that's not hardcore enough.

To use a common slang, 'Go hard or go home'. I put myself in the mentality of someone who bore hatred for absolutely everything because of his own suffering and when I did that I discovered that an end without beauty...without something to make it really stand out, would not make my aggressors feel a thing.

However, if I painted the walls with my shames, if I SCREAMED my vengeance in writing and swore to come back as a demon that would haunt them in the night. Then, my death would have meaning. It would be in the papers, my harsh words of vengeance, the realistic descriptions of hell. They would feel the fear, even if they laugh about it in their own time...and finally, when they are alone...looking at their own reflection in the bathroom mirror, imagine their surprise when they see me standing there...smiling...right behind them. As they turn to face me...they find nothing there and when they turn back, their reflection has transformed into me and then I'll ask them:

'Why so serious son?'

-Captain Chenbeard of the Black Fedora Pirates :iconwordofchen:

P.S. This piece is entirely artistic in nature. So pleeeeeease do not send me notes asking 'you alright?' because if you do I'll just spend my day copypasting a reply saying, 'Yes I am, this is an art piece etc. etc.'

Other Poems by Me:
Whispering to Lucifer Whispering to Lucifer:

Humans are such wonderous creatures
even when granted the gift of knowledge
They fall prey to their own insecurities
slaves to their own fears and paranoia

Such is the father's gift of free will...

Yes my lord, I understand
but do you not feel disappointment?
The great bringer of light has condemned himself to an eternity of darkness
simply so his father's children may roam free

Without adversity, there can be no acension...

Ah, such a philosophical statement from you
I am well aware that humans must experience both extremes
Without tasting joy it would be impossible to understand sorrow
Yet I fear that my
Letting Go of You Letting Go of You:

You abandoned me in the past
without so much as a proper goodbye
One day you simply chose to walk out the door
and you never did come back...

I was angry then, hurting badly
I wondered if I was in some way inadequate
I wondered if you left because I am so easy to despise
and eventually my sorrow turned to anger

I wanted to become great
to show you that you made the wrong choice
to take my strength and throw it in your face
just so you would regret it

But then I saw how happy you were...

In the time we've been apart
You've made a new life for yourself
You've found someone who loves and treasures you
and upon
This is All About You This Is All About You:

Most people giving you advice, might take a quote from a book

Most people giving you advice, have never had a real look

So from someone who's been watching, let me lay my heart bare

I want to show you all the special things, about the girl for whom I care

She always does her very best, no matter how tough the task

Even when she's struggling, she puts on a brave mask

She's always trying to learn new things, just for a chance to make you proud

She can be a little bit quiet, but I think that's better than being loud

She's not the very best in sports, I know she can be kind of a klutz

But she smiles and goes on an
Oppa Pirate Style! Oppa Pirate Style:

Chen Chen Chen Chen, Chen is pirate style!
Chen Chen Chen Chen, Chen is pirate style!

Stick-on tattoos and a Captain's hat makes me a player
My pirate theme is 'Raining Blood' by a band that's known as Slayer
But let's realise the fact: I've got no beard, I'm just that cool
I'm like Monkey D. Luffy when I drown in a kiddie pool

Cause I'm a guy!
The type that sails along the seven seas, a pirate guy
With a black fedora hat I use to tease, a pirate guy
Got so much swag I cure the love disease, a pirate guy
I'm a pirate guy!

So heyo- Pretty ladies I need to know...I need to know
Would you get aboard my ship and dr


Other Literature by Me:
Mercenary 1-1 MERCENARY

Chapter 1: Blood is Beauty

Release One: Pages 1 - 3

THE COLD AIR in Baron Rorke's study did little to calm his nerves. He was expecting visitors this night and they were not the best of company. A shiver of dread ran down his spine and he spent most of the twilight hours staring out of a large window which stood behind his writing desk. It was amazing, he felt, how quickly a man could become attached to a life of luxury; only to be made painfully aware of how easy it was to lose it. War was always a frightening thing, even more so when one had the knowledge and sense to realise that it was no longer an exercise of glory, but a si
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The power of this poem is phenomenal. the imagery is very solid and real, and you get a sense of a deep-rooted pain that lingers. It makes you think long after the last word has been read. Also, the rhythm and flow of it is erratic in a way that matches the content. And I think that the contrast between the narrator's lightheartedness and the darkness of the poem's subject itself is very nicely well done, and it really fits with the take that a lot of people have on the subject of suicide. I just really think you did a wonderful job on this. Well done.
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I agree with the previous critic TheLadyPhantom.

This poem is powerful and phenomenal.

The choice of words are perfection itself. The theme of suffering reaches out to you and wrenches at your heart. Solid poem that sends shivers down your spine. Very original with a clear vision of the story that was being told. The last verse really leaves you in awe, like a last note of a requiem resonating across an orchestra chamber. It haunts your very soul.

There are few poems in this world that are in such exceptional quality and I have to say that this is one of them.

The only thing I really have to comment on is the slight irregularity in meter. It threw me off slightly a bit, but that was an artistic choice. I suppose it synchronizes with the instability of the narrator, and furthermore elevates the impact.
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6 out of 6 deviants thought this was fair.

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samuraishoujo95 Featured By Owner Oct 18, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
o.o i have no words for this
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decayingcherrytree Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I actually really liked this.. and in the discription isn't that something thats the Joker says? cx
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Myennaius13 Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2012
The problem with this much hatred keep inside for long enough to do something like this is that you're never really sure when it started turning you into a monster.
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TwiUnderSeeker Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2012
Another Great.
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noorelven Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2012
despite allegedly being artistic in nature .. i think this turned out to be more of a plain jane kind of piece .. because i know for a fact you can do much better even to make it more artistic if not darker ...
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Acheron21 Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2012
Breath killing.

Because you didnt just take my breath away

You killed it

xD
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WordOfChen Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2012  Professional Writer
Wh00 thanks for enjoying it xD

-Captain Chenbeard of the Black Fedora Pirates :iconwordofchen:
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Acheron21 Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2012
:D
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DragonHeart136 Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2012
This gave me motivation to write more love poems for some odd reason "love" poems. I don't know why but I love your many comparisons and style.
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WordOfChen Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2012  Professional Writer
Thank you for enjoying it and good luck with the love poems :3

-Captain Chenbeard of the Black Fedora Pirates :iconwordofchen:
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intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Cliches are often overly explored. For some reason, every writer wants a stab at suicide, because it's something that hurts so badly. (I have definitely had my fair share on the subject.)

I love your idea to make it something new. It was perhaps a little aggressive for my taste, but that is only my opinion because these thoughts always have such a sobering effect on me.

As you write, I love the way you incorporate italics. That was probably my favorite part. The transitions are seamless but still entirely necessary, and make it that much more beautiful.

It's a little sad, really, that suicide is a form of revenge.
Some people think they'll only mean something in death.
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WordOfChen Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2012  Professional Writer
Well sadly for most suicide is treated as an escape because they lack the courage to even think of it as revenge, this is one of the more aggressive suicides as opposed to the norm of deep depression and sorrow.

I personally went through the suicide to hate phase and then as my hatred grew I realised i didn't have to take it anymore and I had the fire within me to change things and that's when I did.

Now I'm just your average person who dreams of ruling the world and that :3

-Captain Chenbeard of the Black Fedora Pirates :iconwordofchen:
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intricately-ordinary Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
asfdgrjehtkw I wasn't going to say anything on the personal aspect but now that little part of me that wants to make everything better is begging me to offer you comfort.
It sounds like you've grown out of those feelings, but, I shall offer you random stranger condolences regardless!

Suicide it really quite a complex theme.
Some think of it as revenge, some see it as escape. Some see it as salvation. (that's what I've tried to write about.)

Good luck on taking over the world, I do suppose it is a much more effective form of revenge.
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WordOfChen Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2012  Professional Writer
Lol, please no need for comfort. Those years are so far behind me I can barely remember them xD.

Like I said, now I'm just an average person :3 and I suppose an entertainer on deviant art.

I just like exploring the different ways people think of things and see things. It makes the world we live in superbly vibrant :3

-Captain Chenbeard of the Black Fedora Pirates :iconwordofchen:
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BitterSweet138 Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2012
I usually dislike most poems on DA but this was awesome. That last line completely sold it.
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WordOfChen Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2012  Professional Writer
Well thank you for enjoying this one then ^^

Hopefully you'll come to enjoy more of my works in future :3

-Captain Chenbeard of the Black Fedora Pirates :iconwordofchen:
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Krusnik03 Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Aaaah, I see watchu did there.
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WordOfChen Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2012  Professional Writer
xD

-Captain Chenbeard of the Black Fedora Pirates :iconwordofchen:
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randomlyinspired-21 Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2012  Student Writer
Reminds me so much of Joker in a lot of ways... :D

This is really good, and I love the concept! I do enjoy the evil of revenge here! 3:)
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WordOfChen Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2012  Professional Writer
Well the psychosis was part of what I wanted to portray ;3

-Captain Chenbeard of the Black Fedora Pirates :iconwordofchen:
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randomlyinspired-21 Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2012  Student Writer
Well you portrayed this really nicely! :3
I love your lit! You're really good! :D
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WordOfChen Featured By Owner Sep 30, 2012  Professional Writer
Thank you very much for enjoying it lol

-Captain Chenbeard of the Black Fedora Pirates :iconwordofchen:
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ArchaisBeo Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
i really dig your diction, man. you really know how to create an atmosphere
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WordOfChen Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2012  Professional Writer
Thank you for enjoying that ^^

-Captain Chenbeard of the Black Fedora Pirates :iconwordofchen:
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winter33 Featured By Owner Sep 27, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
Wow, amazing. You described a poem in a way I have never known before. Take pride in knowing that you give many other poets/writers inspiration. Ironic really, dark poems giving other poets hope. I love dark poems, they really play on my inner emotions. I can't wait to read more of yours. :D
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WordOfChen Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2012  Professional Writer
Thank you, I am very happy to know that you find inspiration in my works ^^

More to come weekly :3

-Captain Chenbeard of the Black Fedora Pirates :iconwordofchen:
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PeytonJune Featured By Owner Sep 27, 2012
Beautiful
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WordOfChen Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2012  Professional Writer
Thank you for enjoying it ^^

-Captain Chenbeard of the Black Fedora Pirates :iconwordofchen:
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snowywolf13 Featured By Owner Sep 27, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
This is indeed beautiful for such a dark topic. Well done
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WordOfChen Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2012  Professional Writer
Thank you for enjoying it my dear wolf :3

-Captain Chenbeard of the Black Fedora Pirates :iconwordofchen:
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frumpysnuffleupigus Featured By Owner Sep 27, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I love your poetry! Absolutly love it! Je adore it! Look, I even went a lil french!
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WordOfChen Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2012  Professional Writer
Arigato ^^ Your enthusiasm made me use Japanese xD

-Captain Chenbeard of the Black Fedora Pirates :iconwordofchen:
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frumpysnuffleupigus Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
XDDD I love how you sign your stuff.
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WordOfChen Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2012  Professional Writer
Thank you, it's sort of become my title on DA xD

-Captain Chenbeard of the Black Fedora Pirates :iconwordofchen:
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frumpysnuffleupigus Featured By Owner Oct 1, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Lol, thats cool. Im just....There. XDDD
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sweetiekid Featured By Owner Sep 27, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
i...you're my favorite poet at the moment, you're incredibly talented
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WordOfChen Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2012  Professional Writer
Thank you my friend ^^ However the secret is simply hard work and constant practice. I'm actually not very talented (some of my old works are pretty poor xD)

-Captain Chenbeard of the Black Fedora Pirates :iconwordofchen:
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sweetiekid Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
ahahahah well everyone starts out not that good, it may be practice but the energy you put into it is a talent. the way the Rhythms flow...you can learn that in a book yes, but to make words DANCE is a talent and from all the things i have read from you. You dance.

bravo.
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Svitavotara Featured By Owner Sep 27, 2012
Whoaaa..
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WordOfChen Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2012  Professional Writer
Good whoa or bad whoa? :3

-Captain Chenbeard of the Black Fedora Pirates :iconwordofchen:
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Svitavotara Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2012
GOOD WHOA!! A REALLY REALLY AWESOME WHOA!!! :D
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WordOfChen Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2012  Professional Writer
Haha thank you :3

-Captain Chenbeard of the Black Fedora Pirates :iconwordofchen:
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Svitavotara Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2012
HOLY...! O.O That was fast!! xD
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SurvivingNights Featured By Owner Sep 27, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
'To walk forward was to suffer
to stand still was to endure'

That was my personal highlight of this poem. I feel as if, instead of building up to something, you started right from the built-up level, and built you way down to the ending, which I found really interesting, and fresh. I really love how you portrayed this one. The imagery was just clear and spot on in my opinion. Somehow I feel as if there should be a part II to this....but that's just me :p
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WordOfChen Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2012  Professional Writer
Haha thank you very much for enjoying it. I might do part two in future, maybe closer to Halloween :3

-Captain Chenbeard of the Black Fedora Pirates :iconwordofchen:
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Starkpretty Featured By Owner Sep 27, 2012
I like the weird imagery in this. The idea of drawing pins on the floor, like a path of pain towards a bed that's supposed to be pleasurable, is pretty darn creepy. I think my favourite part, however, is the desperate violent end- that end leading to a demon, a haunting, something elemental and terrifiying.

Lovely work!!
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WordOfChen Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2012  Professional Writer
Thank you for enjoying it ^^ It was designed to be utterly creepy and evil :3

-Captain Chenbeard of the Black Fedora Pirates :iconwordofchen:
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Starkpretty Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2012
No problem, it completely succeeded!
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Argentum-Lupae-Luna Featured By Owner Sep 27, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Chen, you are bloody amazing. I absolutely loved the imagery, the emotion, just....it was amazingly powerful.
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WordOfChen Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2012  Professional Writer
Thank you very much for enjoying this piece I truly appreciate it :3

-Captain Chenbeard of the Black Fedora Pirates :iconwordofchen:
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