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I've Changed (Yeah right):

You know, I tell myself everday,
That I'm going to change - that I'll be different.
'This isn't the same; I'm not the same,' that's what I tell myself...
As I sit in front of the computer, praying time doesn't move.

Coward, you're weak and you'll always be weak! You bloody disgrace...

I pick up some new magazine, get inspired,
'I want to be like that guy,' is what I think to myself.
I give it a try for two or three days - I quit.
Same old shit again...

Making up excuses? It's what you always do, you gutless wonder...

I try to reach out with my hands,
Seeking something, anything that I can find to help myself hold on...
But I don't find it - I just find myself,
Sinking back down into the same black swamp - I'm drowning.

Awww, what's the matter? You gonna cry, you gonna cry?

Yeah, I've hit rock bottom,
And you know what? It feels pretty damn good down here.
Nice, warm, comfortable, familiar.
No pressure, no problems - just like everbody else.
...But, I don't want to be like everybody else

Are you trying to catch up to me? What's the point, you're going to fail!

I probably am - I know I've tasted it enough times to believe that.
But still, I'm running till I can't breathe; working till my legs drop.
I'm moving my body, dancing on a stage of glass and nails;
It hurts and I want to quit, but somehow I don't.

You think you're going to beat me - you can't, I'm the best!

Yeah, you are the best, you're perfect.
You're the ideal, the goal, the limit, the sky.
But you're wrong about me beating you though; I know I won't.

Because all I'm going to do is surpass you
And I'll make sure that I just keep on climbing higher
And until the day that my heart stops beating,
I know, I can't quit anymore...

Why? Because I've changed.

-Chen Yuan Wen, 23rd January 2013
Alright mates,

Your Captain is back after another long break (though this one was unintended). I wrote this piece for my 'Again and Again' prompt that I issued in :iconblack-fedora-pirates:

I was going to do a piece on bad romance, but it was weak and so I crushed it. Instead I chose to write about something I've struggled with time and again: "The saying that I'll change or that things will be different"

I'm sure you've all said it yourselves, you'll do better next time etc. But the question is, when do you really change. I think that I've only managed to do so recently, taking proper control over my diet and exercise regime. It's tough, but it can be done ^^

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This is really good and it also is basically my life in poem form. I can really understand the person and it's amazing to see how things are seen through your eyes. There is a lot of passion in this which makes me think you're going through something like this, I do hope I'm right and not making a fool of myself. Although I am glad that I'm not the only person who does this.
This piece seems to be cold and angry at so many things... I like writings like this, the ones that dig into your heart and stay there.
All in all, this is a very good piece.
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A7XFan666 Featured By Owner Apr 4, 2013
Wow you can really feel the raw emotion in this :3 Nice job :omfg:
mariam-free-spirit Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2013
really good ! it touched my heart and came at the time i needed it ! IT'S SO HONEST and hat's what make it beautiful , God bless you .
WordOfChen Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2013  Professional Writer
Thank you, I'm glad that you enjoyed it ^^ Walk with the light as well :3

-Captain Chen of the Black Fedora Pirates :iconwordofchen:
adrian-moisa Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I really like the way you put in words what has bothered me for a long time. I finally managed to pull out of it by really trying hard to change.

A journal could definitely help anybody struggling trough this kind of life by being a friendly reminder wich you could not hate because you defininitly know he (you) is not trying to boss you. Also a journal is a way to give a stronger voice to the inner personna that is organized and dutifull and a better weapon at duelling the lazy part of you.

WordOfChen Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2013  Professional Writer
Thank ye fer enjoyin' it ^^

-Captain Chen of the Black Fedora Pirates :iconwordofchen:
Cabres Featured By Owner Feb 2, 2013
A damned good piece of work, here. I read something along these lines, before. Or, maybe I am just having another alert case of deja vu(not jesting, being truthful). Whichever one it is, I'm thankful for you posting it here.

Adding it to my Favs, Captain. Aye, aye.
WordOfChen Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2013  Professional Writer
Thank ye fer enjoyin' it, I hope t' come up with more that'll impress ya ^^

-Captain Chen of the Black Fedora Pirates :iconwordofchen:
Cabres Featured By Owner Feb 6, 2013
I'm far more than sure that such will be the case. You're a great writer.
TheTargFairy Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I love this!
WordOfChen Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2013  Professional Writer
Me thanks fer enjoyin' it ^^

-Captain Chen of the Black Fedora Pirates :iconwordofchen:
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