Lie to MeThere are those who stare into the water's edge.Gleaming eyes fixed upon their reflections.I am beautiful! they say to themselves,And all of you must accept that as true!To say otherwise would be a social suicide.Their friends will defend them to the bitterest end.In a circle of illusions cast by the group,You are forced to accept this person as 'pretty'.Sorry...To me you are not beautiful, you are simply lazy.You have done nothing for yourself,And now you wish me to accept you?Sorry...But I must tell you the truth.And though that truth may wound you,I believe it is for the best:Because girl, dayum! You just look so bad that my eyes are cryin' YOU a river.- Chen Yuan Wen, 11th August 2013
Are We Not Free?Are We Not Free?:Ye say that nothin' changes;That all we're tryin' t' do is fer naught.Ye say that nothing's wrong,That we should be acceptin' of our fate.But why should we simply accept things as they are?Are we no' a free people?Are we no' allowed t' speak our minds?Every man, every woman in this land,Has the freedom t' choose their own path.If our ideals must beg us differ,Then that too is a part of the change that grips us.What exactly do ye have t' fear?If yer stoic in ye ideal that nothin' will ever change.Why not simply ignore us;A passin' flight o' fancy that we are...Yet still ye try, ye attempt t' change our minds.Ye pacify us with the notion of acceptance,Highlightin' the fact that the world is fine.Ye say that this is the way that things should be!That m'friend, is yer personal freedom;I'll not impinge upon it, fer it be yours.I only ask, if ye could kindly mind,Not to treat us, like we're bleedin' blind...-Chen Yuan Wen, 18th July 2013
What Are You To Me?What Are You To Me?:I have walked in this world,And they have told me of kings.Of brave rulers who make the tough choices,Men of example and outstanding character.But it was then that they said,What is a king to a God?What is a mere mortal to a higher power,One who holds our fate in his hands?They said he was benevolent and kind,Wrathful and jealous, magnanimous and selfish alike.He was the perfect ideal, embodying all thingsAnd we were made in his image...It was then that I was laughed at,By he who asked this question:What is a God, to a non-believer?One who lives by the truth he sees...He is the man who acts as per his morals.He lives through his eyes and is judged by his fellows.He submits to no higher being, not a one does he fear;Comfortable with his own conscience...But all three, I beg; I ask ye this:For what is a king to a God,A God to a non-believer,And all three of them in comparison,To the madman who watches the world burn..."I
What's Left Behind...Some days I find myself staggering from this hovel;To stand with shaking legs upon the window ledge.I look down at the tiny world below, wind rushing before me;And I wonder if I'll be able to fly tonight...The caress of the wind, so gentle upon my skin.One step, one leap and I'd dip myself into the eye of the storm.But just before my courage sends me;Just before I take the final plunge.I find myself looking back, at the world I'd leave behind...Stacks of paper and a pot of ink,Reams of stories too precious to burn.Ideas and fears both rolled into one;And pages of poetry left undone...It always leaves me smiling...For these were the treasures so close to my heart.They are the wealth of my mind; my soul, my art.And I could never ever leave them be,Where another might burn them, without thinking of me..."Apologies father, I cannot join you yet:For in this world, a treasure still exists.A treasure tha
I Am The Mighty!I Am The Mighty:I remember this tale, from a time of brutality; from whence I would have gladly murdered a soul. For the fragile seek to transcend their pain, but ever are they poisoned by it.This man I remember had called himself ‘Mighty’ and I watched from the stands as he delivered his speech. “You are the fools!” he cried to the audience, “for even as you mock me, I am whole. Through tragedies I've suffered, through pain I persevered. I am a greater man and your words may never hurt me.”Fool, is what I thought, for he seemed to take pride in this display. The crowd cheered him on, patting him on the back, but to me he lacked conviction. For I saw through the sham in his boast and I knew that his demons would haunt him again. This time a little earlier than needed.“Yes my friends, I am a damaged man. I have been broken before and my spirit shattered,” he continued to ramble, as I drew close to him.
DesperationI wonder how many days you've spent feeling lost.Thinking that you're going somewhere.Never actually getting anywhere.You look at the same four walls over and over again.You can paint them in different colours,But you know they're still the same.And you convince yourself that you're making progress,Nothing's changed, but you're making progress.Things are getting worse, but you're making progress.And then you wake up and realise,That shit has hit the fan...Suddenly you're forced to do the things you couldn't,The kind of things that you were never comfortable with.And you find out you can do them.You find out that the only reason you couldn't,Was because you were afraid to try.It's hard - trying to take that first step.It's hard - trying to convince yourself to take that chance.But
Dear Father I Loved You, But...Dear Father, I loved you,But this truth I shall say.That you were the demon, that made me this way!And though I am hiding,It's hard when it's lurking beneath:This anger and hatred,It's all I believe.So don't speak or I'll hurt you,I'm sorry, I'm sorry,But you are the ending,Of this broken story.So tell me, dear Father,What can you say,To boy whom you twisted;When you pushed him away.
Living With A LieYou sit there shaking; emotionally frozen.You check the time on your watch, despite knowing it already.The ever-present numbness, the cold feeling which clutches at your soul;That is what you feel upon the dawn of the lie.To know its nature, to know its being;To have it spill upon your awareness.What words would surmise such a bitter feeling:Betrayal, grief? Perhaps the use of dejection, p
You've suffered enough...My dearest child, do not weep, for I am here to wipe your tears away. Come, let us be free of these blankets; let us walk from these dim halls. There lies what once was your body, fevered and eaten by disease. Your lips are cracked and bleeding, your arms are both thin and sallow. Do not fear them now, for they are long passed. Come away now, for we must say your final goodbyes. Here to the mother and father that came to your bedside each day. Here to the brother, who shall honour your name. Do not be jealous of them, my dearest child. For you are simply moving ahead; you have not fallen behind. “But why, why does it hurt so much?” Why? Because the memories are still carried within you. Your attachments are still strong in this world. That which you didn’t achieve, that which you haven’t done. All of it is carried as chains upon your body and they will stop you from
Love Beyond the WindowWhen I was young, I believed in fairy tales.I believed that if your heart willed it,That love could overcome anything.That one day, two lovers could always be together.But those were simple lies I think...After all, how does one reach across a window;Reach across a screen...To hold someone on the other side,Before they slip through your fingers.Like a lonely dance between air and water,I can only stand on the surface of the lake,And see her smiling on the other side....Sometimes, I would draw pictures on the surface;These thin useless arms of mine scrawling tiny doodles,And she would smile and reply to each one:Including a heart, for 'I love you'...And each time I would feel,As though I could soar through any distance,As though I could run a hundred miles.If only so I could see you;If only because I missed you...But enough I say...Enough of this life
Song of RaineShe scatters the seeds with her tiny hands.And pictures the sunset in a distant land.She dreams of places, where she'd be free.With clouds as far as the eyes could see.And there she'd dance to the song of the rain,While I would watch from my window pane.With a smile befitting such a lovely girl;The daughter I lost, to a cruel world...
We Were SoldiersYou'll never hear me say that there's glory in war.It is ugly, it is painful, it is frightening...But I know, in my heart;Deep within this soul born of freedom.That what I do, at times, is a necessity.It is nerve-wracking, most days,Knowing that when you wake up you may not make it home.But still I am proud, Because of what I have managed to achieve.And tonight; I hope that you're proud of me,Because I'm sending a hundred of my boys home.I just wish that I was joining them this time...
Tin ManAmongst the raindrops, pattering upon my silvered skin.I wait in silence, though you never speak.Once you would have chided me,Screaming that it was cold!Demanding with slaps and shrieks that I shelter you;Always until the rain had stopped.It makes me wonder if I have failed a command,Or perhaps if you've finally cast me aside...I made so many mistakes,I was always doing wrong.It wouldn't surprise me if you had me replaced!Yet logic alone denies the thought,For you are still here - simply silent.You've been lying there for days, my dearest master,It is beginning to make me swell with fear...I've called your name so many times,But perhaps the maggots have eaten your ears...They drop from your nostrils and crawl from your mouth,I squash them, quickly, if they ever approach...I have thought about removing them and cleaning them away,But I'm afraid that I would damage you, if ever I tried...You are so fragile my master, like a thin sheet of
Sweet SerenityI have searched the very depths of my being,Seeking the essence of the void...To understand its nature,To become a part of nothing...For where else can we be free of turmoil,Where else can a beaten soul go to rest?If not in the comforting embrace of eternal oblivion?...Such is what I seek, away from the noise that burns at my ears.Away from the many voices that drill into my mind.For these are not the whispers of psychosis,Nor the delusions of a twisted psyche.Instead they are the whispers that are heard all around us;The whispers of the every-man.He who desires the body of another.He who desires the fat of his wallet.He who cares only for self-satisfactionAnd He who wishes to stand above all.Voices, voices, noisy voices...Eternally spitting their foul words into me.Even in the realm of fantasy I can no longer escape!For they are here, and I read their words scrawled across th
DeceptiveDeceptive:Little butterfly,Tempting with beautiful wings;Poisons quickly.-Chen Yuan Wen, 4th January 2013
Under YouUnder You:Beneath the surface of the water,There is silence, peace and darkness.Blessed silence.To mute the mouths of men,To drown the voice of the world.Surrounded by ignorance,I choose not to hear your whispers.Blessed peace.Without death or pain,Without birth and life;Surrounded by denial,I reject this sense of self.Blessed darkness.Without colour or light,Denying all that is around me;Surrounded by emptiness,I am blind within this cage.Muted, ignorant and blind,I sleep beneath the surface of the lake.Eternally drenched, eternally drowned,I am the you beneath the surface.-Chen Yuan Wen, 8th July 2013
Into The Mental AbyssInto The Mental Abyss:To the edge of the very abyss I have travelled.With worn feet, gone bloodied and bare;Dragged upon stones that stretch like sharpened spines,Leaving tattered spoils of flesh in my wake...Even so, I am incapable of halting;Like a zombie, I remain numb and hypnotised.Shambling ever onward, toward the glimmer of light.Eager to be behold the 'she' that awaits me:A wonderous wellspring of inspiration and knowledge;Perfect, yet fragile, in both shape and form...It is her majesty, her radiance,That leaves me drained...Alone in the depths, I am humbled and awed.Yet the admiration that I feel soon turns corrupt,It renders my thoughts both dark and cracked...For if any other were to find her,They would wield her as a weapon.They would have no need for inspiration.Creative thought would be an utter simplicity:Leaving a perfect world, without opportunity...Indeed I could never share such a thing.Jealousy leaves me ugly, but still I c
The Toymaker...Ah my dear, how are you feeling?Not too uncomfortable I hope...You see, you are another,Lucky individual.A wondrous being, handpicked by me,For you are perfect.Now then,Before you start screaming,Before all that noise and unpleasantry befouls these soft red lips.I've taken the liberty of removing your tongue...Wag, wag, wag;That's all it was doing when I extracted it.Like some, infectious insectBut oh, I shouldn't raise my voice.That's not very proper of me, hehe.Now, let's put some markings on you.Mmm - I'm going to have to get rid of all this, excess.You see, I can't have a toy that's all bulging in the wrong places.Dolls are slim, dolls are pretty.So no, we can't have that...We'll just slowly slide this tiny slip of metal.Shlip, shlop, shlip, shlop - and pull!You see, you see?It comes right off, like a laye
In my head...In my head,The birds that fly above meAre the dragons of my kingdom.In my head,Cats and dogs are lions and wolves,And my fish is a sea monster.In my head,My pen is a sword,And I’m fighting witches and evil menTo find my prince charming.In my head,Butterflies spin through the airAnd fly through my bedroom windowsTo whisper things in a languageThat only I understand.In my head,There is a world other thanThese black and white dreamsAnd these faded grey skies.In my head,There is a universe.Can’t you see it, too?
Bones mend, but tell no lies.You have cataloged your scarslike your body is a library-to be read through &learned from.You think ofall the little boyswhose greedy fingersgracedyour pages.You are angry-nonecared for youproperly:foldingcreasing& breakingyour spine.They left youon a shelfto gather dust.& whyshould you everforget that?
The Right Hand Curse ReversedEverything that my right hand has ever writtenComes from the heart and mind of a boy that is cursedSo from now on I’ll learn to write with my left handIn hope not expectation that this curse will be reversedAnd then I shall sit in front of an open fireUnflinching as each flame licks closer to my faceNot close enough though so it could swallow me wholeBut just close enough so that it can have a tasteOf the beads of regret in my perspirationThat are forming and rolling down my furrowed browFrom a wildfire mind that is now out of controlCome thoughts that these damp morals fail to disallowEverything that my right hand has ever writtenMight as well have been scribed in invisible inkWith my thoughts being a vessel on a voyage of hopeAnd the weight of my memories causing it to sinkRight down to the depths of the deepest ocean floorAnd left down there to rot beneath the sea bedI thank the Lord that they’ll remain out of reachAnd that none of the words I’ve
HomesickThey say home is where your heart is.Right now I wonderif that means I am away from home,lost on the roadbetween here and there,or that I amhomeless.
One Like WaterWe speak.We breathe.We eat.We pray.We stand.We sit.We sing.We dance.We bleed.We hurt.We cry.We laugh.We smileWe write.We read.We colour.We draw.We love.We grieve.We fight.We argue.We play.We work.We all live.We all die.So tell me again.How doesrace,sexuality,religion,gender,make us so differentfrom each other?
Lost NovemberI am lost November,with the breath of winterat the hairline of its neck.I am the blood orange thatsours a little too soon.A thirty day intuitionto a season of good will.A blip on the side ofthe road that melts easilyout of sight, out of mind.An unremembered instanceon a torn index pageof a forgotten, spineless book.I am lost November.Remember me the instancewhen you feel unremembered too.
Pros and Cons1. I am not writing a list of things that will make me hate you, as you supposed, but more a list that would help me move on. I always hated how you were very practical that way, even about emotional distress. I am not writing about the trouble with you being your incorrigible logic, your lack of tact.2. I am not writing this because I have a habit of doing what you say, and perhaps, just maybe this would give me closure.3. I am not going to write about how beautiful your mouth is, and how it seems like something that would have been kisses by an angel.4. I am not going to write about how your voice tremors when you speak of loneliness.5. I am not going to write about how you are worthy of songs and dances and plays to be written for your lack of wonder at war, sex or alcohol, you aren’t that interesting.6. I am not going to write about the day you sat me down and dragged me down with you, just so you could complain about how much I loved angel wings and sketches of pretty e
My Name is Hollow.Hello.My name is Hollow.I live inside your soul.Under the layers and layers of skin,and tissue and muscle...all the way down where nothingand everything survives.(I wish I knew before I trusted youThat lying is second nature to onewith as many regrets as you.)My name is Hollow.I live inside you now,because you gave me the powerin all your virtuous beliefthat the world was goodto survive your strength...(I hoped to God you wouldn'tlie or steal or break what is alreadya thousand pieces of a broken soul.)My name is Hollow.You let me in when sexbegan to feel like an ache.But the pain felt better thandealing with the hurtinside your head, your heart...(This was always a world for thosethat were harder than meStrength is sometimes a very relative thing.)My name is Hollow.I am the jagged lines you drawall along your skin,your muscles, your bones...The sharp edge of a knife,the scarlet drops of remorse.(Here's a question now for your
confessions of a misguided poetcertain things in my mindwould be better left unsaid,such as:i. how I stared at a bottle of pillsfor an hour as if they would slide downmy throat on their own.ii. when I stepped out of the showerwith bloody knees and didn't botherto put a band aid over them. iii. why I can't keep a smile longenough for someone to takemy picture.iv. who I wanted to be when I wasa little girl and who I amright here and now. v. where I tried to jump off abridge and landed in waterdeep enough for me to swim in.vi. what I wanted to scream atyou that day but I just stayedsilent and hoped you would forget.no more pretty words andludicrous metaphorstoday; just life,the truth, and everythingthat I never want to tellanyone else.
I Can Only Sell MyselfI am but a pen,Not even a sword.I have naught but words,No skill may I afford.Truly it is sad,That it has come to this.But if you are in need of writing,Then let my words bring you bliss.So tell me, what would you have me write tonight?