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I wonder how many days you've spent feeling lost.
Thinking that you're going somewhere.
Never actually getting anywhere.

You look at the same four walls over and over again.
You can paint them in different colours,
But you know they're still the same.

And you convince yourself that you're making progress,
Nothing's changed, but you're making progress.
Things are getting worse, but you're making progress.

And then you wake up and realise,
That shit has hit the fan...

Suddenly you're forced to do the things you couldn't,
The kind of things that you were never comfortable with.

And you find out you can do them.
You find out that the only reason you couldn't,
Was because you were afraid to try.

It's hard - trying to take that first step.
It's hard - trying to convince yourself to take that chance.

But if you don't, you'll stay the same.
And I think that we're both sick of that.

What can I say?

Eventually, you get pretty sick of being worthless. I mean, I was once a bottom feeder and I'd watch people try to rise to top and sink and I'd convince myself that wasn't the way to go. But you know what, sometimes you've got to take a chance and though I can't quite give the full details on what I'm workin' on. I think I'm finally ready to go beyond the surface of the pond.

-Captain Chenbeard of the Black Fedora Pirates :iconwordofchen:
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ShaedowDanceGlam Featured By Owner May 19, 2014
Went ahead and faved like, 50 of your works. Your poetry really resonates with me.
WordOfChen Featured By Owner May 22, 2014  Professional Writer
Wow thanks so much! x'D

-Chen :iconwordofchen:
ReikiNoJutsu Featured By Owner Jan 22, 2014
this poem says everything im feeling right now...
livethelifeyoulov3 Featured By Owner Oct 20, 2013  Student General Artist
This is emotional poetry man, I love it, espcially how you described it all, then ended it on that positive note, that there is hope. Rock on!
mant01 Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2013
Excellent piece that describes me and other perfect. Before my Granddad died I was talking to him about wishing I could move to Australia and his words were very simple ''its just a single step''. He was right, whatever you want starts with a single step towards the change you desire. Its you changing direction instead of sitting still because the road looks tough. I still hold his words dear since they were amongst the last we spoke and all I can say is, I'll try my best granddad and I love you.
BellaGBear Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
very true words Chen. I like how you first explain how depression feels and then state the cause to actually do something about it.

I also like the last line because it is a fact people get bored or fed-up with depressed people.
Forsaken-Blue Featured By Owner Sep 13, 2013

So true of how so many must feel. But remember, our worth is not measured by societies values.

I hope this project works out for you, whatever it is, and I hope you do break free from the vicious cycle :)

AngieTheCamel Featured By Owner Sep 7, 2013
Beautiful and inspiring :)
madmax2002 Featured By Owner Sep 7, 2013

My opinion, for the little that it's worth, is that you're not worthless. 

There are so many ways of seeing things, we call these "ideologies". Because of my own anxiety disorder and afflictions, I literally spend my time in an 8 x 8 foot room, like a prison cell. I've been in it for 12 years. Some of my best artwork has come from this cell.

Yes, I am the bottom, I am the least of people by the world's reckoning, but I don't value what the world values.

So I think what really needs to be conquered, is the ideology that tells you you are worthless when you are not. That is a lie you have lived by and told yourself. I say this as one of the least of people, I speak from great experience when I tell you, you are not worthless, but my opinion comes from the bottom of the spectrum so perhaps you will not value it. If it helps, if I was at the top, I would say the same. 

Perhaps you could try valuing these following positive things;

"Love, joy, peace, kindness, patience, gentleness, goodness, and self control."

Am I worthless if I have these things? If people say I am then I say people are backwards! So cheer up, you are of great value, everyone is.
ArdianaDA Featured By Owner Sep 7, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
This completely describes how I feel...I feel empty and worthless most of the time...
MountyMacabre Featured By Owner Sep 7, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
This is exactly how I feel! I have written many poems along similar lines myself.
Your writing is fantastic!
Very true, honest and heartfelt and I can completely sympathise and emathise with it.
Great job!
Aspiringwriteroflove Featured By Owner Sep 7, 2013  Professional Writer
"A very thoughtful and heartfelt piece of writing.  I shall add it to my favorites.  :)"   J.L Thomas.
RoadToWhatever Featured By Owner Sep 7, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Can relate to this a lot, great poem!
lancethefox Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2013
I don't care, I HAVE to favorite this.

My main problem is a lack of motivation, and now I find that the second half of this describes how I feel. I thank you, Captain.
BadBreezeR Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2013
Very good sense of thought,Hence u'll never know if u dont try!! GOOD LUCK on ur Journey! ;-)
ZoicZeph Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2013  Student General Artist
Amazing poem that reflects a subject taught to all. Or at least should be... I hope. Anyways, fantastic!
Bamboo-Warrior Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Jeez, this is deep. Really gets you reflecting.
Vivacia18 Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2013
Story of my life^^;
tngapch Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2013  Professional Writer
I really should just have a folder for you... really.

...and that sounds kinda creepy...
FreakshowAutrael Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2013  Student Digital Artist
ApocalypticAya Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Garrison-Kelly Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2013  Professional Writer
Chenbeard: smashing glass ceilings since he first joined DA! :)
candygirl101010 Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2013  Student Writer
this poem is realy emotional and its very emotional i realy like the inspiration i get from this piece it does something 2 me thats very posative, i hope 2 hear more like this and im gunna tell my followers 2 read ur work and commission u
jvrsta Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2013
Well said.
angelichope Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2013
So amazingly true for me!!!!!!:iconwideeyesplz:
Thank you!:heart::hug:
snowywolf13 Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
This is totally me. I've been stuck in limbo for practically a year, but in the past few months I've majorly changed for the better. I feel like I've grown so much, and let me tell you, it's the best feeling in the world.
siathedragon Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
holy shit ,you just read my mind
Rema-Alkhany Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2013
very very nice;thanks
Perianth5 Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2013  Student General Artist
:3 Inspirational!
Chiseikumo Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2013
I hope I will never forget this words ...thank you
Ryley-Kain Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2013  Student General Artist
Thank you.
SilverBatti3 Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2013
...why do i get the feeling that this is what i was thinking of all this time? this is how i've been feeling and you put the words in my mouth for me. thank you love. it means a lot to me. :)
brookelind2000 Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist

this is wonderful ^^


Moozipan Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2013
Can I ask you a question? For the subject art at school, we need to take a picture, quote or something like that that inspires us..and I thought if I could give this maybe?
Moozipan Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2013
This makes me wants to cry for a reason....
I love it :heart: it's so relatable :heart:
samysunshine Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
wow.. you have no idea how much this means to me. this means so much to me. its beautiful in everyway. thank you. thank you
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