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Dependent on a White Pill:

Here I lie again tonight staring at the cracks in the ceiling
I'm afraid that I must bring to light these emotions that I am feeling...
Have you ever met a man like me: calm, composed and elegant?
Or are you one of the many dummies, living in a world that is decadent?

Oh I know how this society works, believe me I have suffered since birth!
I have always been treated as a worthless pariah, starting on June the first...
My fated birthday, a joyless occassion, the date of my inception into a world of naught
With a family that treated me, as a personal clone, I was no different from our dog named 'Spot'

For the first young years of my life however, I knew I was truly happy...
I learned because I wanted to and it seemed to please my Pappy
But as I grew, I learned of truth; a dark and dirty little secret
That I was merely an average student, 'NO!' my mother bleated.

Like a sheep that could not bear the thought she forced me into books and paper
I was made to learn from many tutors and my life dissolved into a empty vapor...
Friends were something nonexistent; at school I could not hear a thing
The latest items sounded alien and it hit me like sting!

I could not relate to anyone and I didn't want to at all
I found that they were all beneath me and so I built a wall
But then the shaking came at night and soon I couldn't stop
I tried every medicine that I knew but again it was all for naught!

In the end I turned to a special salvation, a little white taste of material 'Heaven'
It was a pill from a nameless bottle; The first in a set of seven...


Soon I began to feel as though I could achieve anything that I sought to do
My mind was focused for the first time in years and it was then and there I knew!
These pills were the solution to my ugly problem and with them I was complete
By consuming them each and every morning; I sailed upon my feet!

The day was a sparkle of vibrant colour and I was confident in any circumstance
No matter what the question or the problem; it crumbled away like an avalanche
I was happy now, as though a hole was filled and my heart it held an eager beat
But as the days wore on, I found that the joy was simply getting weak...

A single pill would do nothing for me and so I started to take one more
Before I knew it, I was eating three! Or maybe it was four?
I tried to stop so many times, but what you would know of my horrid life?
It is either I choose to take the pill or take to the blade of knife!

In the end you will tell me the very same thing, that this is harmful my body
You'll tell me that I should make some friends and go out and find a hobby...
But the truth in the world is never so simple, so shut your mouth and sit in silence!
I would rather swallow more than twenty pills, than resort to personal violence...

"I'm sorry Mother, but I'm just not your 'good' boy anymore..."

-Chen Yuan Wen, 21st June 2012
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Ladies and gentlemen,

This is the first official release for 'Real Week'. It is a clear Water-style poem and I wanted to demonstrate the technique of rhyme.

Why did I choose it? Simply because the disordered mind is actually the most organised. Most of the time the patients that suffer from drug dependency can be lucid and rational (about certain matters) especially if they are habitual users and believe themselves to be capable of controlling their own in-take.

The key is to address the underlying problem. As demonstrated in the poem above, the problem stemmed from the pressure that the narrator's parents put him under. The resolution would be to deal with that first and then wean him off the drug. Sadly, school counsellors are often ill-equipped to deal with such matters.

-Captain Chenbeard of the Black Fedora Pirates :iconwordofchen:
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Hi there, so first of all, I would like to say good job. This is a really great piece of work. I sunk into it and just wanted more. I thought it was very descriptive and all, but one thing that bothered me was that you don't explain where this person is and what they are doing and it's mostly back story. I mean, don't get me wrong I do this all the time and end up editing it lots, but I would rally think about explaining where this character is and then tell the back story of this persons life in between.

Other than that it was really great! Nice job
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It reminds me of that film with Robert DeNiro and the guy out of the Hangover... Limitless, that's it.
I love it, you've managed to rhyme it all smoothly and perfectly, (ONE couplet you didn't the naught and spot.) even with the elipse, it adds to the structure due to the fact you do it in every stanza. The fact that you sometimes change the ellipsed lines around however, is a little strange, but as it's free verse I'll let it go. And sorry, but, it hit myelike sting? I don't understand that... Should that be "It hit me like a sting"?

I could imagine all of this, and the imagery was perfect, you could also feel how depressed and sad they were in the first stanzas, and then how it progressed through his life as he's thinking about it.

The impact, however, is perfect. You can imagine the entire thing, and you can feel the entire way through exactly what they're feeling, it's like being taken on a trip through this person's life as they narrate it, lain on the bed.

And not many people actually address these problems in our society, especially not in poetry, so it's a very original idea portrayed in a very good way, so well done. :clap:

All in all, a very good piece Mr.Chen.
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Wow this is amazing.
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~forevermone Jun 27, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Wow, this is quite the poem. I love the rhyming pattern and can relate to the subject matter since I have a lot of family members with mental issues and/or addictions. I do believe that you did an excellent job of being realistic and true. Well done! :clap:
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~Manigran Jun 23, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
So powerful. You made me tremble at the end.
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Mood: Wow! ~Writer84 Jun 23, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
Wow powerful piece of writing I know I struggled with popping pain killers in high school now of course i never went through counseling or anything just finally said to myself enough is enough. Way to tackle the issue in an inventive way
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~iGeekCharming Jun 22, 2012  Student Writer
The cutting edge truth to this piece, is exhilarating.
It makes me a apreciate the things I usually don't.
Thnx man
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Hey, it's like you suffered something like this, not only done research, you conveyed the feelings so well! congrats
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The first part, with the combo of insecurity and the paradoxical sense of superiority, is certainly relatable. The part with the pills reminds me of the blue pill in The Matrix, in which reality is foregone in favor of short-term personal comfort. It was an interesting poem, even though I almost didn't read it because having a misspelled word right in the title makes it look like it wasn't important enough to the author to proofread. Also, "nonexistent" is misspelled.
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*WordOfChen Jun 22, 2012  Professional Writer
Thanks for picking up the errors.

-Captain Chenbeard of the Black Fedora Pirates :iconwordofchen:
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I like that you write with a purpose and not quite just what comes to mind. Your reasoning is incredible to see.
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