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I know what you're thinking.

It's obvious when I look at your face.

'He's a coward, he's immature, he's foolish'

And you're right...

I can't live up to your standards.

The pressure, the pace, the overload of information.

I can't take it.

I'm lost!

I don't know what I'm doing!

And I don't understand...

I'm not you.

I don't know what it's like to feel normal...

But what I do know, is what's in front of me,

And to me, it's frightening!

I really want to change myself,

(Because I hate myself...)

But please, understand, it's not that easy,

It's never easy, when you don't understand.

When you go through each day feeling different.

Because I'm not you...

But if 'you' are what I have to be,

Then I'm afraid I would rather not be, at all!
Okay everyone,

So sorry for this lazy release. I've been so busy with my job...and I kinda got addicted to Warframe...sorry TnT

Ahem, anyway, I couldn't think of a title for this piece, I wanted to call it 'Hikikomori', but most people wouldn't understand what it means. Essentially it's just about how a shut-in feels most of the time...and I should know since I'm practically a shut-in x'D Except I have a job .3.

Anyway, since I couldn't decide on the title, I decided to have none at all! Now I know why oaklungs uses the '.', it's hard to find a title sometimes...I decided to do the same, but I didn't want to copy her so I used THREE DOTS. Cause three dotz iz betta den wun dot! Dat's good orky philosophy right dere. Two choppaz is betta den wun choppa! :iconorkplz:

Alright, excuse my insanity, it's late and after venting out this piece and killing tons of Grineer in a survival mission, I feel happy x'D

Enjoy the poem everyone!

-Chennie :iconwordofchen:

EDIT: Tired brain getting to me, uploaded the old version, double sorry. I sleep naoz
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Amylee23 Featured By Owner Jun 20, 2014   Artist
this poem is so very interesting and wonderful=)
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StellaStarfish Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2014  Student General Artist
This is fantastic :)
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Sorrowscoldfrost Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014
Very nice. I actually feel like that, sometimes. I know what you mean about not coming up with a title; that happens to me too many times to count... Although, sometimes it's because I'm just too lazy to think of a title.
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MattyXJeevas4blue Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014
So emotional... :/ this represented me exactly, not so long ago- its just amazing how u express things o.O ♡
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TheWeeLad Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014
This is sweet... this is the first time I am commenting on one of your poems but I read them every time I see them (or can get to a computer).

As for titles, I usually just go with words that feel like the poem, even if it seems to make no sense... plus a title will make it easier to find than having to search hopelessly for a poem that you loved but it's title was "..." or"." or even "... --- ...".
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WordOfChen Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014  Professional Writer
Haha x'D Sorry about the title, I think I'll leave it as it is.

Thank you very much for taking the time to comment and I'm glad that you read and like my work. I appreciate it ^^

-Chennie :iconwordofchen:
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TheWeeLad Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014
I always like your work... I just don't always have the time to comment or even hit favorite...
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Debyvip Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014  Student
I have to show this to my mum.... this poem represents very well the feeling of who have been scolded by his/her parents
Really good job!
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WordOfChen Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014  Professional Writer
I see, thank you for enjoying it ^^

-Chennie :iconwordofchen:
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tinyqueen007 Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014  Student Writer
Oh wow very amazing poerty you have a most amazing powerful skills great job :)
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WordOfChen Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014  Professional Writer
Thank you very much for enjoying it :'3

-Chennie :iconwordofchen:
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tinyqueen007 Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014  Student Writer
U welcome :)
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abnormal1000 Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
Wow...
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WordOfChen Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014  Professional Writer
I hope that was a good wow :'3

-Chennie :iconwordofchen:
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abnormal1000 Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
Oh! Oh yes it was! I was just thinking of how this relates to me. ouo
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GoldenNocturna Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014  Student Writer
Dammit, you have no idea how much this fits me. No idea at all. :XD: Well, you can't really be a shut-in if you have a job, right? Granted, my mother fears that I'm becoming one even though I go to college and attend my clubs (and on occasion, events), so I could be wrong. :P Awesome, emotional poetry, as always! :)
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WordOfChen Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014  Professional Writer
Haha thank you kindly my friend and yes I'm not QUITE a shut-in, but I tend to prefer just sitting and gaming in front of my PC :'3

-Chennie :iconwordofchen:
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GoldenNocturna Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014  Student Writer
You're welcome. I too prefer to stare at my DS/3DS screen for endless hours. :XD:
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katzmiao Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014
nice, I'm confused by now..lol
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WordOfChen Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014  Professional Writer
Lol wut? x'D

-Chennie :iconwordofchen:
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GenZelda Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I can relate to this very well. I have ADHD and dyslexia so I'm anything but normal. xD I don't think the same way normal people do yet, my parents and sometimes my best friend push me to act or think like "normal" people.  I just can't because I'm not normal and I never will be normal. I will admit that I do the same thing to my best friend and I'm not proud of it.

I think the problem with this is that we as humans want to control things and if we don't understand something or in this case someone, we want to make them change so we can understand them. We fear things we don't understand and try to control it so when we can't understand people, we try to control them. Wanting to understand someone is good but trying to change them isn't. We have to realize that no one is perfect in this world and controlling people isn't the answer. It takes away free will. Just accept people for who they are and they will accept you...most of the time anyway. 

Sorry for rambling on. I just felt like that's what this poem was telling me.  
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WordOfChen Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014  Professional Writer
Haha well it's okay to ramble :'3 My works are here to make people think and from your comment, you've definitely done some thinking.

Thank you so much for enjoying this piece ^^

-Chennie :iconwordofchen:
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GenZelda Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Your very welcome~! :D I think a lot. =w='
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SilverScheemer Featured By Owner Edited Jun 18, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
This poem is insanely accurate.
I was actually able to get through these feelings.
It's extremely hard, yet extremely easy. Sometimes it's only a matter of unplugging yourself from the world, you know, taking a calm nature walk and not thinking about anything important. Other times I felt trapped. I'd be in a large room of people I didn't necessarily know, and now that I look back, I didn't feel trapped because I didn't know the people. I felt trapped since I felt judged by the people, like I'd never fit in. But your allowed to fit in- not with everyone, but with who you really want to be with.
I hope I'm not coming across as stupid or a preach or something, I'm just saying there's a way to get through it. And although being a teenager makes it 10x harder, getting through it makes you feel 100x better.
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WordOfChen Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014  Professional Writer
Some people will get through it, others might take a bit longer. It did take me quite awhile lol. I was definitely in my late teens before I started becoming outgoing...though now that I have a job and money and a good computer..I'm kind of back to being a shut-in...by choice though LOL Too much to do online :'3

-Chennie :iconwordofchen:
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-.-' sorry that submitted three times
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WordOfChen Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014  Professional Writer
No worries ^^

-Chennie :iconwordofchen:
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iMariposa Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Makes me think of my relationship with my parents. Thanks for sharing this.
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WordOfChen Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014  Professional Writer
Thanks for reading it my friend ^^

-Chennie :iconwordofchen:
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iMariposa Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
You're welcome :D
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InuBlaze-chan Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014
Your poems are really amazing
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WordOfChen Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014  Professional Writer
Thank you very much for the kind compliment ^_^

-Chennie :iconwordofchen:
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FireSprinklez Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Maybe... You could write something about people who have trypophobia. I know that I have trypophobia (scared of holes.) you don't have to do it, it's just a suggestion
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WordOfChen Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014  Professional Writer
Hmmm, it's an interesting topic, but I've never experienced that so it'd be tough get the raw done x'D

My apologies :'3 But thank you for the suggestion ^^

-Chennie :iconwordofchen:
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FireSprinklez Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
It's okay. You didn't have to do it. :)
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XPThemingfan Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014  Professional General Artist
It's so funny, that's really similar to me.
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WordOfChen Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014  Professional Writer
I think a lot of people can relate ^^

-Chennie :iconwordofchen:
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MyVideoGameFanart Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Sooo beautiful and inspiring.... <3 *-*
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WordOfChen Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014  Professional Writer
Thank you very much for enjoying this piece :'3

-Chennie :iconwordofchen:
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MyVideoGameFanart Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Can't stop reading this over and over again... this is so me :D
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SSJ2Gotenks Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
THIS is the real meaning of life, if i may be so bold. fuck those who try to contain you.
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WordOfChen Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014  Professional Writer
Aye ^^

-Chennie :iconwordofchen:
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catmadison123 Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014
B. e. a. utiful
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WordOfChen Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014  Professional Writer
Glad to receive a Jim Carrey style compliment :'3

Thanks for reading mate ^^

-Chennie :iconwordofchen:
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catmadison123 Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2014
;)
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Ricardo-Orozco Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
hey typo in the last line you're missing an 'I' after 'afraid' ..... other then that this poem is a masterpiece it evoked such great emotion :)
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WordOfChen Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2014  Professional Writer
Thanks so much for enjoying this mate ^^ I appreciate it :'3

-Chennie :iconwordofchen:
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Ricardo-Orozco Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
:)
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Snelisa Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2014  Student General Artist
little kid
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WordOfChen Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2014  Professional Writer
I see :'3

-Chennie :iconwordofchen:
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